Since my last trip to the Dominican Republic, I’ve been longing to go back. I though it would be a great idea to go the whole family finally so they can see where I spent a few years of my life and pay their respects to my father and grandmother. I’ve set up alerts and keep checking the travel sites to find the cheapest air fare to the DR for Christmas in hope that we could go and spend a week and bring in the New Year in a different country.
Earlier this week, the SU asked if I had any plans for the holidays this year. I had complained enough at work because the last 2 years I have been on-call for Christmas and New Year’s that my boss changed the calendar. I was also happy because the New Year’s happens during a weekend and if we would travel, we would be able to have a day to rest before going back to work and school. So the SU told me that her parents are willing to pay for our tickets to go to Trinidad. I was disappointed because I did not expect this to happen and I really want to go to the DR because it’s been long enough since we’ve been married and my daughter is old enough to understand certain things and I really thought we would be going there this year.
Somewhere it annoys me to hear the same thing every year because I am capable of paying for my own ticket to go to Trinidad but I have not been back home in over 5 years. I’ve told the SU so many times that there is no way I would go to Trinidad since I have not visited my family in so long but she keeps throwing this to my face and I keep turning her down. Not only I am not ready to go and stay by her parents’ house after all that has happened in the past years, but it is true also that I feel embarrassed to talk to my mother and tell her that we will not be visiting her this year because we’re going to Trinidad.
I do not really feel like going by myself back home and yet I keep wondering about going to the Dominican Republic by myself. It might be fun and it might be not, so I think I will keep my vacation days and see if I can go to France next year. Or maybe I should just organize a party and invite all my cyber-friends over so we could have a party here in South Florida!
Till then…
